The one who is uncontrollable

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

Alhamdulillah Allah gives me time to live until this moment. From the title, as usual there is some 'things' that i wanna write down.

Usually, I thought all things that happen in my live or even somebody life in all about me. Such if the other people got problem, then i thought that i'm the one who make that problem and i need to solve that. And it always burden me because of that thought. Plus i'm always think that i'm troublemaker queen. O so sad being me right.

Let me gives you more clear situation,umpss...No I don't know how to make story clear..huh.

And now, u know how complicated i am right. But alhamdulillah, as time goes by, I always learn something new in my life. Yeaah, I know I cannot control all those thing. And now, I know even people talk bad things about me, I cannot control it and i should not be mad at them. Maybe it just one things that they like to do,which is reviling someone else.

The one who always make mistake

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

It always easy to make a mistake..then another one..another one..and it keeps counting..somehow i wish that i will be like others,i mean the good one..is there any chances for me to be like them? what if one day, i will bored with all those good things. Can i make that bad things again? And maybe people will said that i'm the one who make mistake,so keep blaming on me and give me punishment. Where can i find my strength?

But alhamdulillah, i'm still me..one day i hope i will be the new and good me not good he/she or anyone else..alhamdulillah my Lord because You always give me chances and i'm realize it. Someday, I hope i will be better than today, better than this moment even i'm not as good as others. I hope i'll help be a part of others strength too..;)

that's for bring me to the cloud..

The one didn't like to complain

Have u guys ever feel really mad at someone. Of course yer,right people. I'll bet. And always.

But the right thing is do not complain and please apologize for all things that happen even its not your fault. Is it hard,people?

I'm always feel like i'm not sincere enough when i'm make apologize but at least i make some effort..=)...

The one who didn't go for a vacation

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

Alhamdulillah.. As usual,I still can write something in here.
Easter break has come and i'm just at home doing unsettle thing so that i hope i will not get over 'moodswing' for the 2nd half semester one.
There's also lots of reasons why i didn't plan to go anywhere for the vacation. The main reason is of course money.
But alhamdulillah, before this Allah had give me chances to go so many places that i even know before this. So no need to be sad, my dear heart.
Alhamdulillah, Allah also give me the feeling to praise him in whatever situation i face. Alhamdulillah.

hey people out-there,what are u doing for this break,really keen to know you're plan..i love to see people's pictures on vacation..

The one who get conflict in herself

Bismillahiramanirahim..
Alhamdulillah...Allah gives me chance to update my blog today. Just a short entry, i guess..

Today will be the second test for physics paper. And last night, thanks to Allah because give me chances to study with my friends. At first its quite hard for me because hum i don't know how to describe it..Of course lah kan,since sem 2 last year, i got 'sick' and uncontrollable right.. But Allah give me chances to sembuh.. And i will try lagi untuk mingle with others.


Even its hard or whatever situation it is, I will try my best. I don't want dissapointed my mom. But if Allah takdir kan something that hard for myself to accept, I hope will also give nikmat berlapang dada untuk menerima that fate. O Allah, u always know the best for me. The always making trouble is me, I'm really sorry and i hope i will b better muslim and can lead my children and my student to be better muslim too..Make it easy for us, Allah..

The one who miss her home

Bismillahirahmanirahim

Alhamdulillah,praise to Allah for giving me chances to life until this moment..Hum tibe2 rase homesick and need something to share with plk. Usually people pretend to share/tell their story to someone that they trust or comfortable. But sometimes it doesn't work out. You also need space for yourself like talking with yourself or write in diary or blog maybe..Ye la, kita x bleh nak paksa org rasa apa yg kita rasa. So people if ade ur friend yg sanggup dgr ur story/ or mmbebel2 tuh please appreciate it because its hard to find friend who can be a good listener..

When I layan lagu2 lama especially kembara group nih msr teringat kat my hometown lagi2 rumah my late grandma..owh how i miss them..i hope both of them bersama golongan2 beriman dan dbwah jagaan Allah di sna..how i miss my childhood. But actually my childhood not as happy as others kot..but alhamdulillah, Allah still give me chances to look it on different view. Alhamdulillah, I think what Allah gives to me are priceless because not all people can always see things in different view especially in good one even they are brillian or excellent people..

I have to be strong even i am weak
i have to be strong even i miss my family
i have to be strong even i am tired
i have to be strong even i'm just a girl
i have to be strong even fail
i have to be strong even i'm homesick
i have to be strong even i'm sick
i have to be strong even i'm sad
i have to be strong even i'm broke
i have to be strong even i'm bleeding
i have to be strong when i see my mother's tears
i have to be strong even there is tears in my eyes
it just because i am me..
i'm just ordinary,nothing special about me..
and always gives trouble to people
people, please forgive me for everything
for me its hard to say sorry because i really not deserve to get that from you..
i always hope that i can expensive present for u people
so that u will happy..

The one who don't know to organise her life

Bismillahirahmanirahim..
As usual..Alhamdulillah for today..Its such a long and long time i didn't update my blog..Actually saya tulis je but rsenye mcm malas nak publish..Plus there's no one pon yg read my blog...is it?

Alhamdlullah, even today was very hectic day,alhamdulillah again Allah still give me chances untuk 24 hours tuh kan..If only He make my day just 23 hours,huhu nampaknya x dpt la bersua lagi kan..

Yea,today banyak sgt lesson yg saya dpt especially pasal time management. Maybe sbb i think i am in comfort zone mse awal2 semester dl,then now i byk procrastinate ..yup..start with i didn't take serious on lecture plus lecture notes, and i delay to study lecture material then when test comes, i don't have enough time to prepare. Also, i don't start doing assignment earlier even though i know that last2 i need to copy my friend punyer tp at least i need to kaji awal2 kan..so x de la mse nak hntar br la nak kalut2 n nk emo2 x tentu pasal..And the worst part is, i skip the class and also tutorial..oh what shame on me..

And because of that, my room this week sgt2 la bersepah. I really don't like this situation. When it happen, i start feeling homesick. oh poor girl, u need to grow up..yes i am..i try and still trying..but please don't put limit on me. I am who i am..

And for me the worst part is, when its all happen, my solat time was really2 teruk..sometimes subuh lambat n sometimes zuhur pon solat lmbat sbb nak siapkan assgmnt yg due timenye 2,3 minutes lg....huhu..arhh..this really make me sick. And the most problematic is my isyak prayer, lately i always delay it..why..why..why this happen..bile tgk org lain nih best je..senang dan discipline je jaga solat. I have heard before tp x tau kat mne, ape2 yg kita buat the 1st thing is yg important adalah solat. And solat jugak lah yg akan d kira amalan nanti. ok now i;m really scared..huhu..Plus someone said sape2 yg jaga solatnya insya Allah hidupnya berkat n ok..So anyone yg bce my blog of course refuse to take me as menantu kan sbb i slalu careless in solat time..huhu..


Ok..after such a long and all those boring problem that i face this week, now its time for reflection and take action,right!On your mark get set go...kemas bilik now