The one who feel extremely guilty

Astaufirullahalazaim...

I don't know how to describe my feeling right now.. I'm totally feel that way,guilty. Not only for Allah but all people that i love so much..My parents, my family..and i thinks all those things that my mum worried about me is useless. It's all because I cannot control my behaviour, my self..

At this moment, I promise didn't repeat it again but i still did it. Somehow I feel like i'm really scare of promise or taubat because I'm afraid if i'm do again what i'm not supposed to do.

Where can i get my strength back..where can find it again..I'm feel like now I'm really alone feeling n going through this problem that i created. What am i suppose to do..I got test in 2 days more and at first i had prepared for it but now i'm mess all those thing. I should find my strong will. At this moment, I think all lose all people and things that i really love and what I need now is only hope. I hope Allah is still with me, holding me, guide me, and love me even i really scared to say it.

But Allah still cheer me up with giving me chances have joy with my friends last nite..Alhamdulillah..

The one who like to procrastinate

Now I'm stress..Stress with myself..Lots of things to be settle..

But I don't do anything.. I wake up early evermorning but I still end up with doing nothing. I'm wasting my time..Syaitaan please go away from me.. A'uzubillahiminasyaitonirahim..

Sometimes is it because of syaitan or maybe its my fault,my bad attitude towards time.. Hum..then to make me feel ok, i said it just syaitan..pdahal its my fault,people..

I'm stress, because i don't know what to do.. Where should I start and how to make it easy. O silly me..serve u girl,it happen just because u like to PROCRASTINATE.

Ok..so learn something people from this situation..i will blown up now

The one who is uncontrollable

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

Alhamdulillah Allah gives me time to live until this moment. From the title, as usual there is some 'things' that i wanna write down.

Usually, I thought all things that happen in my live or even somebody life in all about me. Such if the other people got problem, then i thought that i'm the one who make that problem and i need to solve that. And it always burden me because of that thought. Plus i'm always think that i'm troublemaker queen. O so sad being me right.

Let me gives you more clear situation,umpss...No I don't know how to make story clear..huh.

And now, u know how complicated i am right. But alhamdulillah, as time goes by, I always learn something new in my life. Yeaah, I know I cannot control all those thing. And now, I know even people talk bad things about me, I cannot control it and i should not be mad at them. Maybe it just one things that they like to do,which is reviling someone else.

The one who always make mistake

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

It always easy to make a mistake..then another one..another one..and it keeps counting..somehow i wish that i will be like others,i mean the good one..is there any chances for me to be like them? what if one day, i will bored with all those good things. Can i make that bad things again? And maybe people will said that i'm the one who make mistake,so keep blaming on me and give me punishment. Where can i find my strength?

But alhamdulillah, i'm still me..one day i hope i will be the new and good me not good he/she or anyone else..alhamdulillah my Lord because You always give me chances and i'm realize it. Someday, I hope i will be better than today, better than this moment even i'm not as good as others. I hope i'll help be a part of others strength too..;)

that's for bring me to the cloud..

The one didn't like to complain

Have u guys ever feel really mad at someone. Of course yer,right people. I'll bet. And always.

But the right thing is do not complain and please apologize for all things that happen even its not your fault. Is it hard,people?

I'm always feel like i'm not sincere enough when i'm make apologize but at least i make some effort..=)...

The one who didn't go for a vacation

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

Alhamdulillah.. As usual,I still can write something in here.
Easter break has come and i'm just at home doing unsettle thing so that i hope i will not get over 'moodswing' for the 2nd half semester one.
There's also lots of reasons why i didn't plan to go anywhere for the vacation. The main reason is of course money.
But alhamdulillah, before this Allah had give me chances to go so many places that i even know before this. So no need to be sad, my dear heart.
Alhamdulillah, Allah also give me the feeling to praise him in whatever situation i face. Alhamdulillah.

hey people out-there,what are u doing for this break,really keen to know you're plan..i love to see people's pictures on vacation..

The one who get conflict in herself

Bismillahiramanirahim..
Alhamdulillah...Allah gives me chance to update my blog today. Just a short entry, i guess..

Today will be the second test for physics paper. And last night, thanks to Allah because give me chances to study with my friends. At first its quite hard for me because hum i don't know how to describe it..Of course lah kan,since sem 2 last year, i got 'sick' and uncontrollable right.. But Allah give me chances to sembuh.. And i will try lagi untuk mingle with others.


Even its hard or whatever situation it is, I will try my best. I don't want dissapointed my mom. But if Allah takdir kan something that hard for myself to accept, I hope will also give nikmat berlapang dada untuk menerima that fate. O Allah, u always know the best for me. The always making trouble is me, I'm really sorry and i hope i will b better muslim and can lead my children and my student to be better muslim too..Make it easy for us, Allah..